Hello! From a fellow Christian, here I record my journey in Christ with devotionals, blessings from God, thanksgiving, maybe an occasional song, haha. I enjoy writing songs and playing the guitar.

Our God has been so good! This past year He has been using Grace Community Church to help me better understand my sin and His grace. Struggling with clinical depression since 2010, God has brought much healing in my life through His Word and support from the church. Currently an Asian Studies major at UCLA, I hope to develop the skills to better care for and minister to those in/from East Asia, that they also may be able to hear and know the Gospel of Jesus Christ as we have.

Through much counsel and prayer I was convicted that I was not a Christian when I was first baptized in 2009 and needed to be baptized again, not for salvation but because He commanded it. Here is the testimony of God’s grace to a sinner.

Testimony

I grew up in Louisiana attending a Christian school but never once thought about God. My parents would also occasionally take my brother and I to a Chinese church but nothing about the Bible was ever spoken of at home. In 2004 my dad’s job had him return to Taiwan, where he would be for the next eight years. The rest of my family moved out here to California, where I began the 8th grade. My younger brother and I stopped attending church for the next four years.

In 2008 our cousins invited us to a church retreat, where I met a cute girl so I started going to church. The brothers at the church read the Bible with me, and for the first time I became aware of God’s existence. In September of 2009 I was baptized and started becoming very involved in the church with evangelism, teaching children and serving in leadership. Soon afterwards my brother followed in my footsteps. All the parents would praise us as model Christians. Proverbs 3:5-6 became my life verse. There were still habitual sins that I continued in but didn’t think much about. To the brothers who kept me accountable I would share of them as occasional stumblings in my Christian life. During this time my mom also stopped attending church.

In 2010 a relationship that I desired could not happen, which led me into a period of depression for the next five years. I became engulfed with thoughts of suicide, daily heartache. In the darkest of these times I would begin talking to myself. I saw different psychiatrists and Christian doctors who recommended me to take anti-depressants and told me that I was a good person. In God’s grace I was able to get through community college and transfer to UCLA, which was the first time I lived away from home. I continued to go back to my home church on weekends, but with less accountability I started to spend more time on satisfying my lusts and want for entertainment.

While looking for a solution to the depression I met some friends who attended Grace on Campus at UCLA who invited me out to Grace Community Church. It was here for the first time that I heard about Biblical counseling. Before the counselors would tell me that I wasn’t a bad person and that the depression was caused by my circumstances. Here the counselors, after hearing of how I was living, told me to turn from my sins and to turn to God in His Word. In this time God brought to my attention Proverbs 3:7, which says, “Do not be wise in your own eyes. Fear the Lord and turn away from evil.” Despite the counsel I still continued in my sins.  Hours of intentional sin soon became days. After I could not hide my sin any longer from my apartmentmates, I stayed away from my apartment so I could continue in my sin. I started to become afraid at who I really was and of God; knowing that if I continued living in this way He would punish me for my actions. In these times of fear I would cry out to God for mercy and resolve to live for Him. I believe it was in this time, in the winter of 2015, that God saved me, but I would still continue to return to the same sins.

In February of 2016 I got a phone call that my grandmother was in a coma. This was devastating news to me because she loved me very much and I knew she was not a Christian. I had wasted so many years in the pursuit of pleasure, which was time that could have been spent in loving her and sharing the gospelYet in God’s mercy, He opened the door to go back to spend time by her side in Taiwan, prolonging her life a week and a half longer than the doctors had predicted. In that time I got to share the gospel, begging her to turn from her sins and to turn to Jesus for hope after death. Through that experience I learned that in spite of all the sins I have committed against God, His grace abounds even more. The sins that I had so loved do not have the same power over me as it once had. The temptation to sin is still here, but as Romans 5:6 says, “that while we were still helpless, at just the right time, Christ died for the ungodly.” All the sins I had committed, am committing now and will commit God has forgiven through His Son Jesus. Why should I continue to indulge in what my Savior died to set me free from? I now have peace and a joy that continues to grow as I spend time with His people and with God in His Word. In July of this year I was baptized again, this time as a Christian in obedience to God’s command to repent and be baptized in Acts 2.

Since then God has given me more compassion and grace towards my parents and brother. My brother had stopped attending church about a year and a half ago after graduating college, which was discouraging because he was so active in ministry. But this is a reminder to me that as it was in my own life, salvation is a gift from God, not gained by our works. He has recently expressed interest at visiting church again. God has also opened the door recently to read the Chinese Bible with my mom, which continues even to this day. Please pray for my family’s salvation.

 

“Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.” – Proverbs 3:5-6

See you soon,

– Joshua H Wu

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