I got to share my testimony last week at the Men’s group for my church’s fellowship, here it is. Since I was baptized in 2009 I had not had a testimony typed out. Thank You God for the opportunity to share of what You have done and are doing.
Name: Joshua H.C. Wu
Years at GCC: A little over two years
Ministry involvement: Men of the Word, Doulos Fellowship, Worship Choir, Sunday evening prayer group, Chinese Bible Fellowship
Marital Status: Single, would like to be married
Occupation: Commercial Real Estate, selling Dental Practices
Testimony (To the Men of the Word Men’s Fellowship at Grace Community Church)
Dear brothers, my name is Joshua Wu, and this is the testimony of God’s saving grace in my life. I was born in Texas and grew up in Louisiana. Though I went to a private Baptist School and Church, nothing about Jesus ever stuck with me. My parents would occasionally take me to Chinese church to make friends but otherwise nothing about the Bible was. In this period of time I never thought about God at all, only about girls and video games.
In 2004 my dad’s job had him return to Taiwan, where he would be for the next 8 years. The rest of my family moved out here to California, where I began the 8th grade. My younger brother and I stopped attending church for the next 3 years; occasionally my cousins would invite us out to spend time with them and go to church.
When did you receive Jesus Christ as Savior?
In 2008 they invited us to a church retreat, where I met a cute girl so I started going to church again. It was in this time that brothers at the church spent time with me to read the Bible. Through this I became aware of God and of my sins, of Jesus’ love for me in dying on the cross. From the Bible I started becoming aware of the beauty of God’s creation and His daily blessings in my life. No one had ever loved me before like Jesus did, which prompted me to accept him as my Lord and Savior. In September of 2009 I was baptized. Over the next several years I started becoming very involved in my church with evangelism, teaching children’s sunday school and serving in leadership. I fought hard to get rid of my habitual sins. I had a strong desire to see my friends come to know God, with Proverbs 3:5-6 as my life verses. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.
Trials in my life:
During this period of time I was also going through highs and lows with depression. In 2010 a relationship that I desired could not happen, which led to much emotional pain. I saw different psychiatrists and Christian counselors who gave me anti-depressants and pointed me back to God’s love. In this trial God taught me the truths of Romans 8, that there is now no more condemnation for my sins, that nothing could ever separate me from His love. By God’s grace I was able to get through community college and transfer to UCLA, which is the first time I lived away from home. I continued to go back to my home church on the weekends, but with my newfound freedom and lack of accountability I started to indulge in entertainment and my lusts. I fell deeper into depression.
Help from other Believers:
In the summer of 2014 while looking for a solution to the depression I met some friends who attended Grace on Campus at UCLA who invited me out to Grace Community Church. It was here for the first time that I heard about Biblical counseling; before the counselors would tell me that I wasn’t a bad person and that the problem was due to my past and my circumstances. At Grace Church the counselors, after hearing of what I was doing told me to turn from my sins and pursue holiness to get out of the depression. This counsel angered me because I believed that I was doing the best I could to love God. I continued to try and live as a good Christian but I kept returning back to my habitual sins. Hours of intentional sin soon became days where I would stay in my room and keep away from people. After confessing my sins to my apartment mates, I soon stayed away from my apartment so I could continue in my pursuit of pleasure. I started to become afraid at who I was. I had always believed that I was a sinner, but in this period of time God was teaching me apart from His changing of my sinful heart I would have never chosen Him. Romans 3:10 tells me that “there is no one righteous, not even one.” Made aware of my helplessness, I called out to God to have mercy on me, to help me to turn from my sins and to love Him. He did this radically through a trial soon to come.
A Reality Check:
In February of this year I got a phone call from my mom telling me that my grandma had fallen into a coma and had 3 days left to live. This was devastating news to me because she had cared deeply for me and I knew that she was not a Christian. The consequences of my sin became clear to me. All those years I had spent living to satisfy myself I could have been spending in sharing the love of God with my family. On my knees, I asked for one last chance to share the gospel with her. God, in His mercy, opened the door to be able to go to Taiwan and spend time by her side, prolonging her life a week and a half longer than the doctors had predicted. In that time I got to share the gospel with her, begging her to turn from her sin and turn to Jesus for forgiveness and hope after death. I do not know if she could hear, but through that experience I learned that in spite of all the sin I had committed against God, His grace is greater still. Through God’s love for me in this trial I better understood that He works all things for my good, and that He wants me to turn from my sin and to know and love Him whole heartily.
Since that trial the sins that I had so loved do not have the same power as it once had over me. The depression has all but disappeared; in fact, I learned that I had been using the depression as an excuse for my sin. The temptation to sin and self-pity is still here, but as Romans 5:6 tells me, That while we were still helpless, at just the right time, Christ died for the ungodly. Before Christ came into my life I was His enemy. Yet all the sins I had committed, am committing now, and will commit, God has forgiven them by placing the punishment on His Son at the cross. He was looking for me when I wasn’t looking for Him. Why then should I continue to indulge in the very sins that Jesus died to save me from? Instead of just trying to stop sinning, which by itself will not work, God has been teaching me to look to the Christ my Savior for the power to turn from sin and obey Him.
What I shared tonight is just a glimpse of all that God has been doing in my life. He has been healing my relationship with my parents, breaking my pride and my judgmental attitude, growing me to be more like His Son Jesus. He has been teaching me to trust and depend on Him in prayer. All of this is only possible because God had brought men into my life who shared the Bible with me, not only teaching me in how to study it, but by their godly examples showed me how to live as a Christian. May we all, as men, by God’s grace, strive to be like Jesus to our families, to our bosses and coworkers, to those who God brings into our lives. May we all, as men by God’s grace, follow the example of Jesus Christ to lead those around us to know God more, through our words and our actions. Thank You God.